giving faith.

bawhy is my YM time now a source of topics to blog about?! haha. anyhow, this conversation was between me and titopao, one of the very supportive fans of Hangad, the choir I'm in :)


"sometimes i wonder if it's a good thing (or a bad thing) that someone close to you knows your weaknesses.. but i guess that's part of the realities in any kind of relationship (romantic or otherwise). there's this implied risk of a trust that can be very, very fragile especially if the significant other can read your mind completely.. yun bang kahit na hindi ka kumikibo alam nya yung nasa isip mo."


I believe that all people -- the whole human race for that matter -- have this desire, this burning need to be known for who he/she is. Using the line of Susan Sarandon in "Shall We Dance?", I guess it all boils down to having this witness to one's own life. A witness to your victories, to your sufferings, to your wounds, to your moments of realization, to the birth of your dreams. More importantly, a witness to your limits.

This witness can be a really good friend, a significant other, a randomly met stranger, who knows, it might even be your pet Bantay.

But, seriously, the point of this particular entry is, we thrive on the gorgeous idea that, one day, we won't have to bother if another person knows one's weaknesses, quirks, annoying mannerisms, idiosyncrasies et al.. it is this unfailing faith in the other that serves as one's comfort, a security blanket to assure one's safety.

however, this leads us to another fact: faith in another person is NOT enough. trust can be broken.



so where does this lead us to?

to fear having a close relationship with another?

to distance oneself from the people around you?






imagine, for a second, that a loved one or a good friend told you this:

"Do you miss yourself?..... I do."




I believe that it is in undergoing that leap of faith
of baring one's self
of engaging with another
wherein we are most likely to
find meaning,
understanding,
or even contentment
in our existence.


note:
the irony of the statement
"it is in giving
that we
receive.."


true isnt it?




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"Gifted with conscience, intelligence and power each of us is indeed a center. But a center called to go out of ourselves, to give ourself to others in love -- love, which is our definitive and all-embracing dimension, that which gives meaning to all our other dimensions."

- Fr. Pedro Arrupe, SJ.
28th Superior General of the Society of Jesus