a pinch of memories and a pound of good riddance

there is something to be said about staying and leaving.


i guess i can start with my ym status right now (ako lang gumawa nito ;p)







there are people who find ways to stay....

and others who choose not to.







there are those types of people that you dont formally meet (you arent even acquainted!) but they affect you anyhow, even at the most infinitesimal level.







there are those persons who have been with you for the longest time yet never really made their presence felt in any way possible.








still, there are others who absolutely, positively, supercalifragilisticexpialidociously arrive instantaneously accompanied with all the much needed fireworks and noise of anything that can make noise. you can never not know when these types of people are not in the same room.








yet, there is a rare breed. these people are those who, apart from being physically away from you or have hardly talked to you for months on end, are still very much present. . still "actively" changing you and making you a bit more at peace with yourself, with your surrounding. still challenging you to be more than you could.








it's a bit weird that im talking about this when, in fact, i actually lost someone this way.

i guess you can say that circumstance or (shall i be more cliche?) life itself, gave this person a test wherein the results of which would enlighten me as to all the doubts that have been lingering in my head.





and i never thought that he would be the one to flunk it.





nor did i realize that, in more ways than one, i lost something that i thought i always had.




i guess the question really, is that.... was everything that transpired real?

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sorry i had to let that out.


turned out to be more of a reflection paper than a .. well, i dont know. didnt plan to make something out of it. haha


anyhow. dont get me wrong. im actually feeling quite liberated at the moment. it's just a little bit funny that it took me almost 6 months to.. okay. enough of that. hahhaa. too much info right there ;p

but, yeah... im actually feeling... pretty good :) regardless of what i jst wrote down. hahaha.


it's 115am of wednesday. got an adrenaline rush since i came from, in my opinion, one of the most technically challenging practices in my Hangad life. haha... we did a singthrough of ALL ... can i just reiterate.. ALL songs for the acapella concert. grabe. what made it challenging was the fact that i wasnt religiously attending prac since it was vacation so i had to learn the songs on my own. and i dont feel as comfortable with singing since even if i learned it already, a part of me is still not as confident in singing the part out loud. yun pala may mga binago rin sa mga piyesa so the funny thing that happened was, i had to change what i formerly knew to be the correct way of singing the piece DURING the time that the whole choir was singing the song. talk about downright cramming ;p hahaha


i still have a reading to read (doi) in preparation for a quiz on thursday. so far, it has been a good few days in school. there is a certain pressure building up, though, since majority of my subjects are majors (one is for my minor) and a lot of my subjects will be having group papers, group reports, group research paper, et al. my stand on this? i will accept group stuff as long as i dont have ANY freeloader/slacker groupmate. im sorry. magis na ito. hahaha.


sige, time to hit the reading. im still very much awake right now. dont know if what i wrote a while ago is the cause of this sudden joltness. haha.. im glad to be back in the blogging world!! :D .. and im glad to be .. enlightened :p