a whole new ball game

it is a friday and i am down to the last 2 days of my sem break.. grabe, that fast huh? i can't really say that i was able to do everything i wanted to do during the break (go to taft and visit the J-B/Sr-C ppl, outing with J-B/Sr-C people, etc) but there were a lot of surprises that kinda made up for that.

sige, i'll just type some stuff that pop up in my head as i blog.. and in all honesty, during the break, mas lalo akong tinamad mag-blog kahit wala na nga akong ginagawa.. Lol.

1) SK stuff : well, kahit nag sem break, i cannot really say that i was a bum the whole time.. dahil nga may mga "season" ang SK namin for our projects, w/c is either summer or xmas) since we're all either busy with school or working (one of us nga lang..hehe), we all agreed to do something for october. after 2 fun but productive meetings and a consultation with a barangay employee, we found out that all that we thought about wasn't going to be feasible. our target date (nov. 5), turns out, was too soon. so, again, after a few meetings and my one-on-one meeting wid our brgy. captain, what we had worked on had been, well, sinantabi, for lack of a better word. our brgy. kap suggested something new and i respected his idea. it was kinda cool actually. . but, i felt bad since we really thought of a new project and then wala rin pala? sheesh.
however, the great thing is, we had another meeting with Kap and this time with my kagawads. bad thing was, i was too tired since i came from Ateneo and did some errands so in the end, our "fate" was up to one of my dependable kagawads to "plead our case". haha. great thing he was able to step up to the challenge. . whew. you saved us there, ben. hahaha:) bilib talaga ako sayo! thanks a LOT. . may surprise nga lang ako sa kagawads ko. when we were able to convince Kap already na yung project na lang namin yung gawin kasi especially for December naman.. tapos sa march nalng yung Free dinner/admission/dance sa Padi's for junior and senior public high school students para sakto sa grad/year-end party.. so, sabay inaannounce ko sa kagawads ko na since i was always the one in charge of the paperwork, legwork (going to the city hall, going to the pagawaan ng streamers, paying for the lights & sounds of BeatBox, etc), PR with the people in the brgy. hall (& eventually eating lunch and merienda with them.. haha) and basically making sure everything will be in place before the day of the project (w/c is the Battle of the Bands) arrives. . i didn't want to baby my kagawds anymore. it is time to let them learn the ropes and know exactly what it is i did so that, in turn, may alam din sila with how the government works. okay ba?? :)

2) School stuff : im going into my 2nd sem in the Land of the Big Blue and i am crossing my fingers and hoping that i would be able to survive this sem. i have calculus. . and i am kinda scared that i wont be that great in it. sheesh. everyday math baby.. haha. . i guess im scared that it might be soooo far from Ma11 that i might just stare at the board and search my head for a translation of some sort. haha. . sana naman hindi mangyari yun. .

3) Org stuff : looks like it was a good thing that i made Ben and Bianx project directors for our next SK project this December since it would've taken a toll on me. given that i get home (las pinas) ng friday night and only have saturday and then sunday morning to be at home and get some r&r, juggling SK preparations will be stress for me. apart from the choir im in sa church, im also wid ACMG. and, may caroling kami. . guess wat? im one of the 3 project heads na maghahanap ng house, transpo sa household na kakantahan, directions, .. basically the what, when, where and how.. haha. nope im not complaining. i actually got excited when our choir head called me and told me about it. i replied "of course!" right away. :) . . i looooove singing kasi masyado. ;p christmas pa?!? my most faaaavorite season of the year... :D on top of that, i was contacted also by ate marian, our EC (eucharistic coordinator), and she asked if i could be an EO (eucharistic officer).. basically the "leader" of a particular mass slot. so you're the one to make sure that everything goes smoothly for the mass and the cooperation and active participation of your members.. grbe, i was kinda shocked why they asked me since i was a freshman and my first sem just ended. wala pa nga akong one year sa org.. haha. yet, again, i have to reiterate that im not complaining since i really love serving. ibang klase ang pakiramdam to be a part of the mass :)

4) my dad : i guess it's time for me to say it here .. please pray for my dad. to those who don't know, his lymphoma recurred. it was 2 years ago when the said cancer happened and after 6 sessions of chemo, was reduced from a 7cm diameter to a 2cm diameter. this bukol was situated in the right part of his neck. my dad, although his oncologist said that he had to return for check-up, was too stubborn and thus, did not go back for check-up. . a week before my finals, my mom called and broke the news. . . i was devastated. my first reaction? kasi naman eh, hindi bumalik para magpa-check-up! i know that one must hold on to the faith but, isn't the saying nasa Diyos ang awa nasa tao ang gawa? applicable to this situation??? anyhow...... after my fil finals (w/c was the last one i had to take) i packed some clothes and went to Capitol Medical... that afternoon, my dad was going under the knife and have an open biopsy so that Dr. Tuason would know if it is indeed cancerous or not. the kulani or lymph nodes was now at the left side of his neck. . i even got to see the sample. "meaty" was the description given by Dr. Tuason. it was oblong in shape and may pagka-off white. . anyhow, after that, overnight kmi ni mommy sa hospital kasama si daddy. by the way, when i entered the hospital room, it was the first time that i saw my dad wearing hospital clothes. . but picture this, imagine kunwari someone very close to you... yun nga, yung hospital clothes, lying down in bed with an IV sa may hand nya.. my gosh.. i almost cried when i saw my dad in that state. . . . take note that he was still waiting for the open biopsy.. wala pang nangyayari sa kanya. . . i just couldn't bear to look at him for so long.. i had to look away para lang hindi umiyak. . god. . ... when the results were out, it was confirmed. it was lymphoma again. non-hodgkin's disease. . i won't delve into the details... basta next week, my dad is going to the oncologist so that we'd know what type of treatment he would be needing. . either chemo or radiation. . my dad is hoping na hindi na chemo. . and by the way, kaya ako hindi nakasama sa gimiks ng UP/Ateneo J-B/Sr-C people ay dahil sinamahan ko si mommy sa St. Luke's and Capitol Medical to get the slides analyzed and also get the results. . what we really need now is prayers. a lot of prayers. . i know that there is a reason for this. that although it pains not only me but also my family and the numerous friends of my dad, this disease will go away once and for all. . and all will be well again.